Snapshots of Life

Sunday, October 26, 2008

When Thy Sweet Spirit Strikes the Strings

Over the past year or so I have been a member of 3 different wards.  In conjunction with various family functions and vacations I have had the opportunity to attend a few others.  I've been reflecting quite a bit in the last several months about what I see at church.  I must admit that sometimes I have a knack for picking up the character and personality of others, especially when it comes to their eccentricities and quirks.  It's not a trait that I am particularly proud of and I try not to use it as a source for criticism.  I also try not to psychoanalyze anyone who is not sitting in front of me in my office.  Nevertheless, it is easy for me to get frustrated or amused or annoyed by the man who constantly talks about the sealed portion of the Book of Mormon and its contents or the one who bears his testimony about how Barack Obama is going to destroy the world (not a supporter of Obama either but, really, testimony meeting??).  The choir director who has ADD or the auxiliary leader who is just a bit too focused on the presentation and the details instead of the message.  You have your know-it-alls and your tell-it-alls, your yappers and your snappers, your out-of-control children, and your too-much-in-control teachers/leaders.  This to say little of some of the resulting lessons, talks, and comments from these unique folks.  It's the same everywhere you go, right?  I don't think it matters if it's a student ward or a family ward, a Utah ward or an any other ward.  "The church is the same everywhere you go" as we like to say.

But, you know, that's not the real focus of what I've been pondering about.  I'm aware of it, sure, but all those thoughts are just part of my dirty, stinking pride that creeps up too often.  I've been thinking instead about the miracle of the Church.  The absolute wonder of it.  I've been thinking about how every Sunday people all over the world gather together to give talks, and read scriptures, and make commentary, and listen, and take bread and water.  The people are busy and preoccupied and burdened.  They are imperfect.  Yet, in each ward that I've been in, as a member or a visitor, I sit in a sunday school class or sacrament meeting and feel the goodness of the people.  The pure goodness.  They come and they participate for the same reasons I do.  They are called by the same Voice and are united under the same Head.  I sense that often they have a keen awareness of their imperfection but they are trying.  In the midst of all the weirdness and weakness I see remarkable faith and humility, often from the same people!  I see hope and virtue, diligence and love.  I am taught and touched by their gifts, examples, and sacrifice.  It is an incredible thing to see people in their true light.  Those talks and lessons and comments are more than words, they are inspiration, they are more than filler, they are truth.  The taking of the bread and water in unison with the saints is a process of covenant renewal and sacred worship, not just taking a tray and passing it down to your neighbor.  We remember and witness individually and collectively.  In the process, my imperfection and their imperfection is being chipped away - all that sin and all those quirks - one piece at a time. 

The last few Sundays I've felt this impression particularly powerfully.  It was a typical Sabbath today.  Priesthood was about service and we heard mission stories and testimony and home teaching plugs.  Sunday school was centered on 3 Nephi 17-19 and we discussed the Savior's visit to the Americas.  Sacrament meeting was the Primary program and we heard familiar primary songs and the simple Word from the children.  We smiled at their indiscernable shouts into the microphone and their waving and daydreaming.  For all intents and purposes, very usual meetings.  We even had kids crying so loud by the end of the program that the benediction was not audible.  Yet, through it all I felt a profound and comforting spirit.  It was a spirit of reverence and awe at what was happening.  In the process of those lessons I heard sincere and thought-provoking words.  I felt faith and testimony.  I saw and received charity.  I observed humility.  I was touched by song.  There I was, one of many in our building today and one of millions all over the world, to worship and to learn.  I came to commune with God and be uplifted by my brothers and sisters.  Wonderfully and mercifully, in the midst of all the imperfection and weirdness, I did and I was.

At the close of the meeting our Bishop stood to offer a few closing remarks.  He spoke emotionally of how the previous day he had participated in the funeral of his infant grandson, who we had all been praying for with him and his family for several weeks.  He mentioned how he had been so touched by the outpouring of love and support from the ward that this little baby and his parents belong to.  He bore testimony of the blessing of little children.  As he concluded his remarks the primary children presented him with a huge card showing their love for their Bishop at a time of grief and loss.  He thanked the children and simply said, "there is always good that comes of tragedy".  It was a snapshot of exactly what I'm talking about.  The tears in my eyes and the lump in my throat prevented me from singing most of the closing hymn, even with all the screaming children.  I was just consumed for a moment in the goodness of God and the goodness of His people.  The words of the hymn expressed the feelings of my heart.

Before thee, Lord, I bow my head
And thank thee for what has been said. 
My soul vibrates; my poor heart sings
When thy sweet Spirit strikes the strings.
How sweet thy word I've heard this day!
Be thou my guide, O Lord, I pray.
May I in patience do my part.
Seal thou the word upon my heart.

Do thou, O Lord, anoint mine eyes
That I may see and win the prize.
My heart is full; mine eyes are wet.
Oh, help me, Lord, lest I forget.
So may my soul be filled with light
That I may see and win the fight,
And then at last exalted be,
In peace and rest, O Lord, with thee.

 

             

    

7 comments:

B said...

I now have tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat. Thank you for sharing! That was beautifully said and a great reminder. Yesterday in Sacrament Meeting I was also reminded about what we are really there for as I had a three-month old asleep in my arms and a 6-year old cuddled up at my side. Children are the greatest reminder of the pure love which we need to strive to have for all men.

Kate said...

I'm so glad you posted this. I've been having much the same experience recently... Especially after travelling and being keenly aware of how alone I was in my desire to be in a church meeting last Sunday, I have been full of gratitude for the church, and the knowledge that while I may have been alone in that desire while on vacation, there are so many who share my love for the gospel! I'm ashamed to admit, however, that the "quirks" have garnered much more attention in recent days. Thanks for the reality check!

Mike said...

Thats a really good reminder for me, Thanks. I often get caught up in the amusement of the day and also find myself wathcing and observing far too often. (I hope the people you mentioned in this blog do not read your blog...)

Ali said...

Beautiful.

Lisel said...

Thanks for the reminder! Your poor bishop made me cry too! I also couldn't sing our closing song after the primary program ("I am a Child of God") as I thought about the kids and their simple, but easy to forget, message. Zach bore his first testimony as part of his talk and by the end I couldn't hold it in.

Karli said...

I already told you this C. but for others. I also had a moment like that during the Primary program. All wards do have their funny situations and different people, I being one of them, to others sometimes. I led the children in the first verse of "Called to Serve", then the congregation stood and joined us in the second verse. The two groups totally played off each other and each sang louder and louder. it struck me that as odd as we all are, and the battles we may be fighting, we are all there trying to serve our King! the moment struck me and I had to fight back the tears.

Thurbs said...

Hey CJ it's Aubrie Sorensen(Thurber). I stumbled across your blog. It's so good to see that you're doing good, having not seen you in almost 10 years. Can you believe it's been that long! I have a blog too if you ever want to check it out- except it's set to private. If you email me and send me your e-mail I can send you an invite. Scarecrow_aub@yahoo.com